25.4.09

deeply frustrated

i feel so dumb & stoopid
i failed myself
i hate myself for putting a happy face around you, around them
but the truth is i'm crying inside
but i have to put it together!
i failed
i failed for university entrance tests.
not once.
but this is the second time.
i failed both on UNDIP & UGM.
i'm in the lowest point of my life
GOD,
when the high point comes around?
i'm no more than an useless daughter who cant make my parents proud of me.

4 gossip(s):

tiw said...

there's a time where we are in the lowest point of spirit.
feel so dumb.
feel useless.
as i am now.
showing smile,
but keep tears inside.
but remember..
if we dont make a move.
start from now.
we'll be dumber and more useless.
so, cry today.
and fight tomorrow!
good luck for you.
and me too.

hope for the unsoed result.
:)

IPPAPARAZZI said...

thanks thanks thanks wi :)
i wish i could have big spirit like you..
still hope the best for our unsoed result,
2 weeks more :)

Unknown said...

sistaa.
idup kan kayak roda.
kadang di bawah.
kadang di atas.
mungkin awalnya kita berada di bawah.
tp nanti pasti ada saat2 kejayaan kita.
sista sabar yaa :)
terus berdoa nd usaha!
never tired to try :)

Dyah Diwasasri said...

hello miss I,
after read your writing i remembered about one song from Good Morning Everyone titled : "Cheers Up, We Have Chance !"
like what it titled, i just want to say cheers up !
because no more cheers up, hardwork will be ended.
don't care about all things which is betray you.
i know you can !

be ready, doctor. hehe :)